Alone, but Not Lonely

“Orang yang terbiasa dengan sepi akan jatuh cinta pada kesepian. Menyukai waktu-waktu tidak diganggu orang, menyukai perasaannya yang menjadi sendu, dan kesepian itu pun menjadi candu.” – Kurniawan Gunadi

After some long and exhausting hours.. A quiet night like this feels like heaven to me. Finally, some alone time with my thoughts.

Entah mengapa saya selalu suka menikmati kesendirian. Kesendirian tanpa rasa kesepian. Sunyi yang menenangkan.

Ketika berada di tengah suasana ramai sekalipun, saya sering berusaha mencuri waktu untuk menyendiri. Socializing drains my energy, so I need some alone time to refill.

Orang bilang kesendirian itu menyedihkan. Tidak demikian bagi saya. Being alone without feeling lonely to me is one of the greatest blessings in life. Betapa keheningan adalah candu bagi para penikmat sepi.

Sendiri, tak selalu identik dengan sepi. Bahkan seringkali sebagian dari kita merasa kesepian di tengah keramaian. We often feel left alone, like an outcast in a faceless crowd.

Saya sangat menikmati waktu-waktu saat tengah sendiri. Ke toko buku sendirian, makan sendirian, duduk di taman sendirian, atau hanya berjalan kaki menyusuri trotoar di sore hari. Sendiri saja.

Dalam kesendirian, ada kedamaian yang tak saya temukan saat berada di keramaian. Saat sedang sendiri, saya bisa lepas bebas berpetualang.. Walking aimlessly between the shiniest and dustiest corners of my mind.

I can talk and listen to myself without being disturbed or interrupted. No friends, no fights, no blinding lights, nor deafening noise. Just me and silence. A beautiful silence.

Solitude has always been my best friend since forever. Bahkan saat dulu masih single pun, saya sangat menikmati status jomblo itu. Why? Because we will never have these days again. So I choose to enjoy it while I can.

Tentu setelah menikah dan memiliki anak, praktis kesibukan dan prioritas jadi banyak berubah. Family always comes first, of course. But having some alone time has always been a part of my way to maintain my mental health and sanity.

I always treasure each and every chance I could find to enjoy some solitude and turn inward, even just for a while. A moment to reflect, to reconnect with my inner true self.

By spending time alone and creating some space on my own.. I can be fully myself again. I feel so relieved and recharged. It’s not a selfish act, it’s a form of self-love. And for me it’s a necessity.

In solitude, I find myself. I find the beauty of silence. I discover the bliss of solitude. I’m not antisocial, friendless, or loveless. I might be alone, but not lonely.

And maybe that what most of us introverts do..

In love with the idea of being alone, without even feeling lonely 🤍

~ Jakarta, end of September 2021.. those who fly solo have the strongest wings.

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